Saturday, December 17, 2005

Alone...

I'm not very sociable and i suck in human relations.. i find it way muc better to express myself thru texts or chats than verbally in real life.. hence dat's y i've got more virtual frens than real life frens..

i miss my real life frens.. i'm desperate to c and to talk to them again like wad i've had during my school life.. nevertheless this will never ever seem to come true as ppl change.. i did make the move to contact them and to my dissapointment.. there was no reply.. i even have long lost frens whom i've lost their contacts..

i'm so screwed.. having a 9-5 job now is freakin mundane... doing the same repetitive activities every weekdays.. this is worse to the fact that i dun have family n close frens in KL..

perhaps things would be much better if i did something to it and meet up new frens... this is not impossible.. but i sort of refuse doing it as i've been living in my own "comfort zone"

when i was in my rented room.. lying alone on my bed and watching tv.. i kept thinking of myself.. of how nice would it be to hv notti boi bside me.. my parents.. my pc.. my own room and my sis... and as always.. the reality struck me that it's really hard to find an IT job in ipoh and i've to forget bout it..

life just doesn't always get to the way we wanted it to be...

9 comments:

Merv Kwok said...

be strong man. ur not alone in ur problems to communicate hehe. high five!

Jee said...

It's a common problem for lots of people, I was always blamed for not taking the initiative to call my friends, luckily they are still willing to look for me for outings lol..

If you really feel lonely, you got to challenge yourself and take the initiative to look for your friends, old or new.

Good luck.

v0ices said...

... not that no one wants to contact you. the numerous times you turned down my invitation :~(

Chuang Shyue Chou said...

Oh dear. Poor Alicia!

~*~LostSoul~*~ said...

she's very shy la ... dun push her to go out if she doesnt want too ... did u miss me too?

Darryl said...

Ir'a not all that bad being a loner... but EVERY loner deserve to have at least a PC with them at home! Let alone, it's almost a crime not to have a PC if you're an IT person!

Kampungkai said...

hey girl, u sound sad, nah.. dun be! I guess it's just another tiring week, i hope the weekends will make things better and cheer u up! Dun sit in the room and play so much online game! I was in TimeSquare today(sat), how come u never come and greet me!!! hahahha :P so in order to ganti balik, u r bringing me for a movie!

DarReNz said...

yeah if ppl call you and you take it for granted then next time when they stop calling you and you don't contact them thats why lost touch ... anyway when u gonna meet up wid me ?

Alicia said...

darrenz: huh? :P err dono when to meet up.. recently me kinda tension cuz of my job..

kgkai: hmm i was in times square last sunday :P.. too bad u weren't there

darryl: got pc but no internet oso sian..

snow: yups miss ya

csc: at least i still get to c my nottiboi over the weekends

v0ices: cuz u're a hater :P

jee: thanx for the advice

merv: hantu u..