Alone...

I'm not very sociable and i suck in human relations.. i find it way muc better to express myself thru texts or chats than verbally in real life.. hence dat's y i've got more virtual frens than real life frens..

i miss my real life frens.. i'm desperate to c and to talk to them again like wad i've had during my school life.. nevertheless this will never ever seem to come true as ppl change.. i did make the move to contact them and to my dissapointment.. there was no reply.. i even have long lost frens whom i've lost their contacts..

i'm so screwed.. having a 9-5 job now is freakin mundane... doing the same repetitive activities every weekdays.. this is worse to the fact that i dun have family n close frens in KL..

perhaps things would be much better if i did something to it and meet up new frens... this is not impossible.. but i sort of refuse doing it as i've been living in my own "comfort zone"

when i was in my rented room.. lying alone on my bed and watching tv.. i kept thinking of myself.. of how nice would it be to hv notti boi bside me.. my parents.. my pc.. my own room and my sis... and as always.. the reality struck me that it's really hard to find an IT job in ipoh and i've to forget bout it..

life just doesn't always get to the way we wanted it to be...