Thursday, December 22, 2005

Living in a SmaLL WoRld

live goes on and the world kept changing evryday.. evrybody grew older day by day but somehow.. sometimes there are ppl who creates a little world for themselves that the attention to it is undividable.. that one wouldn't know his/her environment is actually evolving..

this is a description of how i feel at times..

for instance.. previously, when i reached KL after a long break in Bangkok on Monday.. i saw ppl working and travelling and the traffic is still like the usual mondays.. at that moment i realized that the world is so big.. everything around me is moving and none of that seems to get my attention most of the time.. only then i knew i have been so busy giving attention to the small tiny world that i've created...

for years i kept advising myself not to look back, proceed and look forward to every aspects of life n yet i failed doing so...

at times i would remember how much i enjoyed being in ipoh and kampar(when i was studying there) and would think of those special ppl who have touched my life.. like how one would walk from the college to my place just to buy me lunch (15 mins walk each round) in a mere 1 hr break under the hot sun and how one would nver fail waking up early every morning to fetch me to class... it was all so sweet that the beauty of it was i didn't even request or expect anything..

besides.. i dun deny that i still need to be taken care of.. i'm an attention craver.. hence dat's y i kept thinking of my hometown cuz i wouldn't need to be independent and alone there..

i need to grow up and stop thinking of things dat is now a history.. and some say.. i need to change cuz as wad they told me i'm still very muc like a small girl and immature.. i dun noe how true is that.. perhaps that's just part of me that can't seem to let go of some memories..

i think the inner me is still very muc the same like how i were when i was 17...

6 comments:

Jellyfish said...

intresting story....

ermm....
actaully.. taken care by other ppl is very happy one lo :)

Alicia said...

jellyfish: yups it's a very nice feeling..

Darryl said...

all u need is a warm fuzzy hug from me!

DarReNz said...

yeah time to grow up and let go ....

Ivan said...

your friends there have probably moved on,.. but heck
dont let go of memories,.

they make you,.. YOU.. lol

toodles

Alicia said...

darryl : virtual hug? xD sure

darrenz : mebbe

ivan : hmm mebbe